It’s difficult, very difficult!

It’s difficult, very difficult.
Extremely illogical
Infinitely hurtful,
Yet, I choose,
What I have chosen.
No, it’s not,
What I wanted to choose,
But I’ve chosen, despite.

My heart would hurt,
Soul would burn
Mind would explode,
Yet, I choose.

There are no questions
And hence no answers,
There are no corners of solace
And hence no goodnight

This is it,
A choice, unwilling
Spine chilling

Yet, dealing, believing, being.