Its not easy!

It's not easy
It may never be
But,
Since when did I
Start pausing before
The beginning?
Since, when did I
Start thinking about
The results? 

No!
I'm not this
I never will be.
Though,
You want me
To lose hope
But, rest assured
I won't. 

I'm not your,
Corporate result oriented being
I'm a combination of
The patterns in
My mind
And
The craziness of
My soul.

I'm nothing less
Or nothing more,
I'm just what you
Think about
No more.