Appreciate!

Appreciate your
Mind
Body
And
Soul
Because
They have helped you
Live
And
Exist
Appreciate
The ugliness
The sadness
And
The dullness
Within and around you
Because
That is
The reason
Why you
Started
Craving
And
Lauding
For
Beauty
Happiness
And
Light.

Appreciate
The universe
As, it is
Holding you
Safe and tight
In its arms
So that
You can
Share
And
Express
What you
Like or dislike
Love or hate
And
Million other
Feelings
And
Emotions.

Appreciate
The thought
And
The emotion
Which has
Hit your
Head
And
Heart
As, it gave you
The ability
To think
And
Dream
So, that you could
Achieve
Believe
And
Imagine
The good
The bad
And
The ugly.

Appreciate
Every Second
Every minute
And
Every hour
Because
You are
Capable
And
Blessed
Enough to
Appreciate
And
Express
GRATITUDE
Towards everything
Whether it is
Living
Or
Non- Living.

Appreciate
The very
Essence of
APPRECIATION
As it has
Made the
Universe
A place
Truly
Amazingly
And
Undoubtedly
worth living

 

Note to pseudo beloveds!

Since my second year results are out my over enthusiastic beloveds, well wishers, enimies etc have taken out time from their busy schedules to enquire how my result was. A couple of them love me to such an extent that they managed to screenshot my result and send it to me. I would sincerely like to appreciate their effort. They took the pain to get my examination roll number then used the battery of their cell phones or laptops to log in to the website finally type the required details then see my result and probably do some mental calculation of my percentage followed by a couple of comparisons with some fellow human units or animals and then finally take the pain to send me my result. A heart felt thank you to you people for checking my result before I knew it was out.
You may or may not have checked it for massaging your ego, comparing it with fellow beings, to tell me how bad I was academically or probably for some other reason which I dont know. I am glad that I have so many people in life who are interested in knowing how do I perform academically and it gives me immense pleasure in acknowledging the fact that you are interested in my marksheet more than me.
Also, I am a bit astonished as i have recieved messages from people who barely talk to me, to people who have hated me and probably wouldnt even turn up on my funeral to ask how my score was. Was it bad or very bad and similar firing of questions is still in progress.
All i would say is I might have scored something known as a BELOW AVERAGE SCORE but i am extremly happy to learn that i atleast have average DOG LIKE LOVE LEFT IN ME EXCLUSIVELY FOR PEOPLE WHO I CARE FOR, which in my opinion is something to be happy about. i atleast ask people how they are before shooting questions like how was your result?, why didnt you score X percentage ? and the list of such questions is inexhaustable.
I wouldnt say marks dont matter to me because i know they do matter to me more than a lot and probably that is one of the reasons why i get pissed off when people ask me my score when i havent scored well.
Yes! marks matter to me but i am quite sure they dont define me!

Thank You!

With huge hugs and lots of love,
Devyani

P.s.: People wishing to check my result my examination roll number is: 4121450036. Please go ahead and check my score card if you wish to!

A Dreamer!

Before a
Successful
Career
A happy
Life
A passionate
Artist
There is
A Dreamer.

A dreamer
Who dreams
To achieve
What
He or she
Has
Dreamt
Or
Is probably
Still
Dreaming about

A dreamer
Is
A passionate
Extremely
Compassionate
And
Beautifully
Imaginative
Being

Who has
The wings
To fly
Eyes
To see
The unseen
And the
Courage to
Believe
His or her
DREAM.

Out of Love: 09!

It's been a while I heard you
MY CHILD,
Whispered a voice unknown...

And it's after ages I felt so good
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Today, I stood in front of my mirror with my eyes shut to see who I really AM.....
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In this tussle between my head and heart....my soul got crushed.
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The magical journey of realisations
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The truth is that everything is a LIE

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The only difference between you and a Pheonix is, you are real and that bird is imaginary. Everythig else is common between you two.
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I haven't seen anything more magical than life. So, if magic is an illusion then life is an illusion too!

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Time and dreams are 2 things which I can't control!!!
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Its basically our tensions and tussles which help us transform :) 

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Dreaming, planning and achieving are 3 different concepts....which ultimately lead you to your goal

I dream!

I dream
All day
All night
Sometimes with delight
And
At times with fright

I dream
Of a different land
Where I'm a  colourful girl
Playing in a
Beautiful
And
Peaceful
World
A place
Where
Flowers talk
Trees walk
And
Humans stalk
Flowers and trees.

I dream
To be
Successful
Compassionate
And
Hard working
But
At times
My dreams
Become
Scary
And
Traumatizing.
I can't
Control my
Dreams
They come
Very unknowingly
In a
subconscious
State of mind.

I dream
Because
I know
I can
If I
Don't dream
How will I be
What I dream to be
Therefore,
I dream
Passionately
And
Whole heartedly

Hello me!

It's been a while
You genuinely smiled
Said, a voice
I looked around
For a while
Turning my head
Left and right
Searching
For the source.

After sometime
The voice repeated
Smile, you fool
I'm craving
And
Desperately waiting
To see your
Lips expand.
I turned around
Round and round
Wondering
Thinking
And
Guessing
Who's voice was it.

Some seconds of
Silence
Peace
And
Calmness
Followed the voice
I felt easy
Yet confused
The voice then said
Don't look around
Look within
Peep inside
Inside your soul
You idiot

Well......
I didn't
I couldn't
Why would I?
I knew already
It came from
My SOUL
Was fooling myself
As I always do
To escape
The harsh reality
And
To ease myself
With imagination

But....
This time
The whole of me
Refused to
Be fooled.
It
Or rather
The real ME
Had realised
Escapism
Is not the
Solution
And with
This I
SMILED
And
Realised
Who I really AM!!!

A Music Day?

If I may daresay that I have understood music by 0.01% of what it actually is, then I think all I would say is it surely doesn't require a day to celebrate its existence. For me it's been a way of life. I have been associated with it since I was 9 years old and today I am 19 and music or in my case Tabla has been the only constant for a decade. I don't understand how can one celebrate music in a day. Music has been one of the major reasons which has helped me stay peaceful and composed. It's more like the oxygen I breath in. Is it possible to celebrate oxygen's existence in a day? Do you celebrate oxygen? Or you just acknowledge it's existence and somewhere within express your gratitude for it's presence? I very proudly confess that I lack the potential to celebrate MUSIC in A SINGLE DAY. Every breath I take, everytime my heart beats it somehow tends to say "Thank You" to music.
It's because of music that I got recognition, it's music which made me realise the real meaning of peace, I learnt about something called PLEASANT PAIN and the list can go on and on maybe till eternity. I started enjoying the pain in my upper arm after practicing Tabla and that is what I call pleasant pain. I could feel my muscles relax, the flow of my blood felt like a peaceful river and my mind was quite without any tussles in it. This is the impact of music in my life. And I as an individual think that I have only known music by 0.01% of what it is.
10 years of absolute devotion to it and I still haven't understood it by a percent. How do you expect me to celebrate it if I haven't understood it. And I can guarantee you I will never be able to decode what music exactly is.
I haven't loved music, I have lived it every single day of my life.
And I refuse to celebrate my life in a single day.

A dialouge with pain!

Ah pain! It's been quite sometime we've known each other. You know me I know you. You know when you get hard to manage, I tend to become more substantively productive.
Anyways, since you're trying to go beyond control this time I am pretty sure I'll manage to complete all my tasks before time.
This game/war between us has become boring, but since you still wanna compete. I'll fulfill this wish of your's.
Let the game begin!
All the best, dear Rival.

तलाश- ए- खुदा!

उन्होंने कहा....

खुदा की इबादत कर

मैंने पूछा...

कहाँ है वो?

उन्होंने...

मुझे आसमान दिखा दिया 

टिमटिमाते तारे 

बादलों के पीछे से

मुस्कुराते चाँद 

से मुझे मिला दिया 

मैंने पूछा......

क्या ये खुदा है??

उन्होंने कहा...

नहीं! 

मैंने पूछा...

फिर क्यूँ दिखाया ये आसमान मुझे?

उन्होंने कहा....

खुदा इस आसमान की तरह 

असीम और हसीन  है 

उस खुदा को 

ढूंढा नहीं,

महसूस किया जाता 

उसको कमरों में कैद नहीं 

दिलो में समाया जाता है 

धर्म से नहीं 

कर्म से पहचाना जाता है 

मैंने पूछा.......

ये दिखने में  कैसे हैं?

गोरे हैं या काले हैं?

लम्बे हैं पतले हैं?

इनको में पहचानूंगी कैसे?

इनसे मैं माँगूगी क्या?

दौलत?

शौहरत?

या फिर 

कुछ और?

उन्होंने मुस्कुराकर.....

पहले मुझे दर्पण दिखाया 

फिर कहा 

"ऐसा होता है खुदा"

मैने कहा.....

अरे! ये तो में हूँ 

और में खुदा नहीं हूँ 

मेरे आगे कोई शीश नहीं झुकाता 

कोई माथा नहीं टेकता 

कोई मुझे नमन नहीं करता 

उन्होंने हँसते हुए कहा....

जब तुमने खुदा को 

कभी देखा और सुना नहीं

तो तुम्हे कैसे पता 

कि उनके आगे लोग कैसा व्यवहार करते हैं,

मैं दो पल शांत रही...

फिर 

उन्होंने कहा.....

खुदा कोई 

चीज़ या इंसान नहीं है

हाँ! लेकिन 

हर इंसान 

हर चीज़ 

में खुदा जरूर है 

तुम खुदा हो 

मैं खुदा हूँ 

ये पेड़ खुदा है 

सब कुछ ही खुदा है 

इसीलिए वो असीम हैं 

मैने कहा.....

फिर क्या मैं सबसे 

कुछ- कुछ 

मांग सकती हूँ?

उन्होंने कहा....

खुदा का काम क्या माँगना होता है?

मैंने कहा.....

नहीं! वो तो सबको सब कुछ देता है 

उन्होंने कहा.....

हाँ!

खुदा तो तुम भी हो 

तो तुम्हे भी देना चाहिए 

निस्वार्थ 

जैसे 

एक फूल खुशबू देता है 

संगीत सुकून देता है 

पेड फल देता है 

मैंने कहा....

पर मेरे पास तो देने के लिए कुछ नहीं है.

उन्होंने कहा...

प्यार का नाम सुना है?

मैंने कहा...

हाँ!

उन्होंने कहा...

प्यार से बड़ी अमानत 

उससे बेहतर कोई एहसास 

आजतक महसूस किया है?

मैंने कहा.......

नहीं!

उन्होंने कहा.....

इस एहसास को बांटो

इसकी एहमियत बताओ 

इसकी क़द्र करना सिखाओ 

बस कभी कुछ 

वापस मिलने 

की कामना मत करना 

बस अपना काम करना 

अपने दिल से

अपनी आत्मा से

मैंने पूछा.......

क्या ऐसा करने से 

खुदा बन जाते हैं?

उन्होंने कहा....

कुछ करने से नहीं 

लेकिन 

कुछ बाँटने से 

किसीकी हँसी का कारण बनने से

किसी की दुआओं का 

हिस्सा बनने से ज्यादा 

ज्यादा अहम क्या होगा?

एक दूसरे की ज़रुरत पूरी करो 

ताकि किसी को कभी कुछ माँगना ना पड़े

इतना प्रकाश फेलाओ 

की अँधेरा कभी ना रहे 

ऐसा काम करो 

जिससे सब खुश रहें 

और दुःख कोसों दूर रहे 

एक ऐसा ज़माना 

जहाँ लोग 

खुदा की नहीं 

मुस्कानों की इबादत करें
क्यूंकि 

सही मायने में 

सुख 

चैन 

शान्ति 

प्रेम 

ही खुदा है.

इसको बाँटने वाला खुदा 

इसको अपनाने वाला खुदा 

इसीलिए तुम खुदा हो 

मैं खुदा हूँ 

और 

इस दुनिया की हर चीज़ खुदा है 

इसलिए दुनिया की इबादत करना 

खुदा की इबादत करना हुआ || 

A perfect imperfection!

My scars,
My imperfections
My flaws
Aren't they a
Part of ME?
Like,
My strengths,
My beauty,
And
Other good things
That my
Soul
And
Body
Posses.
Isn't my
IDENTITY
Incomplete without
Both
Black and white???
Am i not part
Of my own
Shortcomings?
Am i not
A perfect imperfection,
Which has all of me
Whether it's
Good
Bad
Or
Ugly?????

Flower!

Before its blossoms
It's torn and plucked
To spread its fragrance
To spread smiles and happiness
It's thorns are
Brutally scrapped
From it's body
Are they not part of it?
Who listen's to
It's pain?
Nobody
Colour
and
Fragrance
Is all we see
Sorry!
Dear flower,
We dont acknowledge
The tears you
Painfully weep .

The voice!

It's been a while
I heard you
MY CHILD
Whispered a voice
Unknown
Yet
Very familiar.
It's after ages
That I felt good
How I wish
I could
Tell you
How good
I was,
Before you
Faded
In the world
Far far away.
Where did you come from?
The sky
Or
The sea
Or
The woods
Or
Somewhere else.
Dear,
Voice unknown
You made me
Feel so good.

My system!

Beloved creatures (including human units) on Earth!

I need/crave/require hugs after working for more than 45 mins at a stretch.
You may or maynot find this weird, but the fact of the matter is this how my system functions. I am programmed in such a way that my battery can only get recharged after a hug. Work done or the rate of efficiency is directly proportional to the size and amount of hugs.
Please cooperate with my system and if possible please add fuel to my system too.

Thank you
.

Out of love: 08!

At times denial is much more important than acceptance.
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A heart is never stitched....it's either taped...or it's simply removed.
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At times you don't have the opportunity to grab an opportunity.
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There is a huge difference between being happy and living happily...
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Stale wounds don't hurt much.......but their scars, surely become one more obstacle which whole heartedly tries to stop the healing
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Its because of moments that you make memories and its because of memories you cherish those moments.
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Some souls are so beautiful and impactful that they just become an inevitable part of your life. Meeting them is always unfulfilling as it leaves you craving for more!

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There are no new sentences without fullstops...
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Today, as my eye lids kissed my eye and covered them with their curtain of love......I could see and feel an all new world. A place where colours ruled, music worked and happiness prevailed.
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90% of the things you do are done because you have to do them not because you should them or you'd like to do them.
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कुछ कमी है, शायद?

सांसें हैं पर
धडकनों का आभास नहीं
घडी है पर
वक़्त का ख्याल नहीं
पैसे हैं पर
खर्च करने क वजह नहीं
खवाब हैं पर
पूर करने का जूनून नहीं
लोग हैं पर
प्यार नहीं
शायद
सब कुछ ही है
पर चैन नहीं 

Dark over light!

Twinkling stars

Shining moon

Peaceful sky 

Silent roads 

Noise-free atmosphere

Sleeping in peace

Dreaming a fantasy land

Away from the race

Without any hustle and bustle

Everything is just so serene

But the irony is

They say 

The nights are

DARK.

For them the day 

With commotion

Lots of motion

Is the only notion

Of

LIGHT.

I'd gladly 

Very happily 

Prefer the 

Dark 

Over the

LIGHT.

For I know

Serenity

Peace

Happiness

Aren't earned

They are  

Attained.

And for me

The so called

DARK

Has helped 

Me attain 

Them ALL 

And 

Therefore

Dark 

Over 

Light 

Is how 

I define my 

Delight.

Each other's identity! :)

Light and dark
High and low
Deep and shallow
Success and failure
Selection and rejection
Joys and tears
Life and death
Are antonyms
Yet they are
An inevitable
Part of
Each other's
IDENTITY.
They cannot
Exist simultaneously
Yet they are
Inseparable
From each other's
IDENTITY.
They define
Each other's
Importance
Relevance
And
Necessity

Smile!

Smiles travel miles
Without feeling
Tired and exhausted
They soothe your soul
Without any effort
It's just that
At times
They are
Dependent on
External factors
And
Internal situations
It's peaceful
But
It's rare
These days
You don't find
People smiling
And laughing
They might
Pretend to
SMILE
For the camera
So that they look happy
But the truth is
You don't smile
With your lips
You smile with your
Heart and soul.

Out of love: 07!

Some places are made and some are constructed
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At times the journey itself is the destination..
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dont wait for an opportunity, create one!
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there are no coincidences things are meant to happen and therefore they happen.
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Life itself is a phase...A phasing waiting to be explored...
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Every twinkling star has a story waiting to be heard.....
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Appreciating art is one thing, but until & unless you value it everything will become pointless!
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Ambiguity has its own beauty!
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Let the strength of love prevail till eternity. Let love's fragrance spread all over the planet!
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Don't think, just feel it

कुछ अलफ़ाज़, बस यूँ ही - 03!

हार से जीत छीन ने वाले हैं हम, योधा नहीं छात्र हैं हम
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ये शब्दों की वकालत है लेकिन दिलों की अदालत है।
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हारते तो सिर्फ वो है, जो लड़ने की हिम्मत करते है।
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ज़िन्दगी तो बस होंसलों की उड़ान है!
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जीत वो नहीं होती जो किसी को हरा कर मिले।असली जीत तो वो होती है जो सबकी मुस्कान का कारण हो.....
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किसी भी कला मे अपनी जान दाल दो, ज़िन्दगी तो बक्शीश मे ही मिल जाएगी, साथ मे सुकून का आभास शायद तुम्हे ज़िन्दगी जीना भी सिखा दे..
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दामन मैं लगा दाग तो शायद मिट सकता लेकिन एक बार जो सपनों पे लग जाये तो सिर्फ दर्द होता है और कुछ नहीं
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कुछ चीज़ें हम सीखते हैं और कुछ वक़्त सिखाता है!
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कभी कभी गलत गाड़ी ही सही जगह पर पहुंचा देती है. क्यूँ होता है पता नहीं पर होता है ये महसूस किया है मैंने.
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ज़िन्दगी बहुत बड़ी है, अगर डरोगे तो जियोगे कैसे? कुछ नहीं होगा अगर साँसों को ये बता दो की तुम्हे उनकी नहीं उन्हें तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है!